M.E.M.O.R.I.E.S

last time i went back to KL from perak by bus, you are still with me..we are still together.. 

i still remember that moment, we are going back for our sem break holidays..we are still happy..you sit beside me..

i still remember at that time, we are both hungry but you only bought one burger..so we have to share it..you let me eat more although you yourself also hungry..i never thought its gonna be my last time sharing food with you..i still remember at that time, one of the girl in the bus watching first love movie..i told you how i love that movie..

i still remember at that time, you let me sleep on your shoulder.. i told you that im cold..you hold my hand tight until i fell asleep.. you play with my fingers..you put my hand on top of your hand..you ask me if you hurt me..i said no because i love it when you hold my hand..i feel safe..

i still remember, you touch my lips..i told you that you have dimple..on your left cheek.. but you deny it..i can see your dimple..and i love it..

i still remember,you told me how you shave and how you love to play with your half-shaved face..and i love it too..i love everything about you..it just you that didn't realise it..

 and that was the last time we were together..now, i am all alone..in the bus..going back..no one sitting beside me..holding my hand when i'm cold..letting me sleep on the shoulder..and now, im crying..again..

K.A.M.I #2

kan dah cakap ade lagi..banyak siri lagi haa..nak kalahkan siri harry potter..wee~~ mau taknye..dah hari2 lepak same..pagi petang siang malam..sampai dah muak tengok muke dorang..okay, that part sumpah not true.. main2 jea guys..rase kalau tak lepak same cam tak complete kot..

wave~~

tanx megat tolong tampar nyamuk..XD

K.A.M.I

yeah,again..this entry is all about us again..dah bosan dengar aku dok membebel pasal kisah kitorang??so what..back off and go get a life..garang tak??okay tak..main2 jea..tak emo pon..just lately, alot of things happen that makes me realise about friendship..

alolo..comelnyee..domo itu..

credit to camera fon megat,bukan megat..

pose wajib megat..motif??dia rase comel kot buat macam tu..

theres gonna be alot more stories of us..just wanna share our happy moments..moments that we spent together..how i wish he was here too..sharing all this happiness with him..but i know wherever he is, he happy with his life now..and im happy for him..

wordless saturday

bosan and tension..end up outing kt JJ Ipoh laa kn..macam takde tempat lain..memang takde pon..dah dorang ni pon mengidam nak tengok ombak rindu..rembat jelaa ape yang ade..kang takdapat tengok ade yang masuk batu belah batu bertangkup pulak..niaya jea..kebetulan ade something macam karnival vitagen..mak pantang dengar muzik ala2 rock ni nokss..orang pasang muzik untuk budak2 buat senam aerobik..hah..bantai mak budak pon nak buat jugak..maka terjadilaa kejadian "student KMPk senam aerobik dekat tengah2 jusco"..kau ade??takde kann??

atas eskalator pon jadilaa nyahh..XD

memang niat naik eskalator sebab nak tangkap gambar jea pon knn..

ye megat ye..kau tak comel..terime hakikat..

bertambah laa lagi satu..sakitkan diri untuk hilangkan sakit hati..XD

wajah duta vitagen..

finally home..i mean kolej laa kan..

creating new memories..letting the past go..its not easy but its not impossible either..i just need to try harder..love u guys.. <3

doaku buatmu kekasih

ya Allah ya Tuhanku, 

dugaan demi dugaan Engkau turunkan padaku, 

setiap ujian yang Engkau berikan padaku, 

semoga mendekatkan aku padaMu..

ya Allah ya Tuhanku, 

hanya padaMu aku mengadu, 

hanya Engkau yang lebih tahu,

sesungguhnya kasih dan sayangku padanya,

hanya dia dihatiku..

ya Allah ya Tuhanku, 

andai dia jodohku,

andai dia yang Engkau tetapkan padaku,

Engkau permudahkanlah jalanku, 

Engkau berkatilah usahaku,

agar dia menjadi milikku..

ya Allah ya Tuhanku, 

namun andai Engkau telah tetapkan dia bukanlah untukku, 

dia bukanlah kekasihku,

Engkau kuatkanlah hatiku,

lapangkanlah dadaku,

agar aku dapat menerima suratan ini,

dan kembali padaMu..

ya Allah ya Tuhanku, 

andai dia bukan lagi milikku,

andai dia bukanlah takdirku, 

Engkau hiasilah hidupnya dengan kebahagiaan tanpaku,

permudahkan segala urusannya tanpaku, 

berkatilah hidupnya tanpa diriku,

sesungguhnya aku redha ya Allah,

dengan ketentuan dariMu..

sesungguhnya aku pohon padaMu ya Allah,

dekatkanlah aku padaMu,

agar aku lebih tenang mengahadapi dugaanMu,

agar aku lebih kuat mengharungi ujianMu,

sesungguhnnya Engkaulah tuhan yang maha agung..

aminn..

art of friendship

lately, dugaan demi dugaan datang..lepas satu, satu..sampai sometimes rasa macam dah tak larat..kenapa mesti Allah duga kita macam ni..larat ke kite nak tempuhi..kita tak sedar, disebalik dugaan tu, ada hikmahnya.. semakin berat dugaan tu, semakin tinggi balasan nikmatnya..aku hilang orang yang aku paling sayang..tapi balasannya aku dapat ramai kawan yang sayang aku..

megat mus'ab megat johari..sumpah aku bersyukur gile dapat kenal dengan kau..depan2 kau memang laa aku tak cakap kau baik ke ape..tapi jujur aku cakap, kau sangat baik..kau yang buat aku kuat..rase macam tak adil plak..kau tak buat salah kat aku..tapi kau yang bertanggungjawab nak buat aku bangun balik..serious kalau kau takde, aku tak tau ape dah jadi kat aku..

kiman..aku kenal kau takde laa lame sangat..tapi still kau ambik berat jugak pasal aku..kau sanggup mesej aku untuk make sure aku okay..kau keep on nasihat aku..bagi aku semangat..and kau tak pernah putus asa pujuk aku..

cahaya..i know i can always count on you..whenever i need you, you always there for me..you faham every single thing yang i rasa..you tau ape nak cakap untuk make me feel better..you spend your time with me just to make me happy..

shaika, you are a great friend.. you always back me up..always there to listen to my problem.. give me advise or at least comfort me with your words..make me feel stronger..you always there whenever i need you..

syaza, kau tau macam mana nak pujuk aku..kau ambik berat pasal aku..every single thing pasal aku kau tau..every single time kau nampak aku, kau akan make sure aku okay..terserempak kat mane2 pon kau akan tanya aku okay ke tak..

sha, kite baru jea rapat..tapi aku senang sangat dengan kau..kau sangat baik..kau tau jaga hati orang.. kau cepat kesian kat orang..kau selalu pujuk and try to comfort me..give me strength..

i'm not sure why, these peoples yang i baru kenal pon boleh fikir and care about me..but how can a person that have spend 6 months with me, share happy and sad moments with me, do most things together, can just forget everything about me and dont even care what happen to me..these peoples can be so worried of me when im sick but he can just sit still and close his eyes..God, im so gratefull to have these great peeps as my friends..please dont take them from me..

girls whore

im not sure how i boleh stuck with these people yang otak lebih kurang macam i.. i mean, jenis yang happy go lucky, cam whore, fun and easy going..but whatever it is they cant beat me when i talk for sure..sebab suara i paling kuat..mom cakap i punye speaker box memang rosak sejak kecik lagi..kalau dah melalak agak2 satu kampung tak dengar memang tak sah laa kan..this is us..

cahaya duduk sebab tinggi sangat..i duduk sebab pendek sangat..haha..

we are rock..

yeah i know..i paling pendek n i paling kecik n i paling comel..what else??(muntahh)

pic kalau tak senyum macam tu memang tak sah..nak bagi tau the whole world gigi i bersepah..so that moms can tell their children, "adik,jangan makan gule2 banyak sangat..nanti jadi macam kakak ni..pfttt..-_______-"

from left ikie, syaza, me, sha and cahaya..

i have got my life back..it still hurt but somehow i can manage it well..so go get your own life babe..