My path

Whenever i feel like there is nothing i can do, or i dont know what else can i do, i tend to write it..same goes this time..i really dont know what else can i do..i never want it to be like this..at one point, i really thought that i can leave my life peacefully again..at one point, i really thought i have got my life back.. Its not easy, i swear to god..to forget everything that has happen..but i take it as one of my life experience..i learn something from that..i learn to forgive and forget..i never intended to hurt anyone..that i even want to take their pain and give them my happiness..i know i am not the good girl here..but i try to be one..i know Allah swt will always be with me.. May all this make me stronger..when the cut have became a scar, it bleeds again..and i know it will heal again.. Eventually.. Because im stronger now..oh Allah, thanks for giving me the strength..for me not to deal the problems wrongly..and please always be with me..and guide my path..

God have better plan

Everytime something bad happen, i always think it happen for a reason..ada hikmah di sebalik setiap kejadian..but sometimes i just cant find a good reason behind what happen..because what can i feel is just pain and tears..i always ask is it true there is always a good reason behind everything that happen?? But i have faith in Allah swt..i know he knows what is the best for everyone.. Sometimes we dont know what is the best for us..we just want something that can make us happy..but it doesnt mean that is the best for us..he gave us rain when we hope for the sun shine..but we dont know later on he gave us a beautiful rainbow..
All this while, i keep on searching for good reasons of what have happen to me..but i can only see tears in my eyes..but now i know..he want me to wait patiently until the right time comes..and at that time, the happiness that i get is more than what i want..its worth waiting for..because now i can smile again..
I never thought a small word, a single message would change my world.. And i wouldnt ask anything anymore..its already enough for me..because i already get my smile again..

Thank you, Allah..for listening my prayer..
Thank you my old friend.. Because you have give me back my smile..
There is nothing i want more..

Camwhore dengan varsity matriks

Aku ni kan sayang sangat dengan matriks perak dulu.. Everything pasal kmpk, everything yang jadi kat sana, everyone yang ada kat sana, give me memories that i will never can replace.. so hari tu bila ada je member matriks cakap boleh order varsity rugby team kmpk, memang aku terus order la cerita dia.. mana boleh miss.. kalau miss ni memang aku cari batu belah batu bertangkup laa..(eh2, terover plak)..so hari demi hari, detik demi detik berlalu, finally siap laa varsity tu..bila member cakap je dah post, rasa macam taknak keluar rumah nak tunggu varsity tu sampai..(nampak tak semangat tu)..bila dahsampai, first thing to do, tangkap gambor ler..ape lagi..so here there are..teringat balik pahit manis setahun jadi warga kmpk dulu..sob sob..

                                                  Rise and Shine

AMEERA ROSLAN

She

When other people born to be perfect, 

She struggle just to look good..

When other people enjoying the happy moments,

She just wish she have a sweetdream..

When other people laughing tears of joy, 

She just wish she can stop cry..

When other people wearing new cloth, 

She just hope she still have the old one..

When other people enjoying the love,

She just hope she can feel it once..

When other people having a family time,

she just wish she have one..

                                                     Rise and Shine

AMEERA ROSLAN

cinta dan anugerah

terkadang bila aku melihat pasangan yang sedang bercinta,

alangkah bahagianya mereka,

alangkah indahnya,

jika aku juga sama..

tapi aku tidak punya siapa-siapa, 

mungkin belum tiba masanya, 

mungkin juga bukan dia orangnya, 

yang pasti dia akan tiba juga akhirnya..

apa yang pasti, 

perasaan itu anugerah,

kehadirannya dinanti,

kepadaNya aku berserah..

mungkin bila tiba masanya, 

tiada lagi tanda tanya, 

kerana aku pasti, 

itu adalah takdirNya..

                                                         Rise and Shine

AMEERA ROSLAN

she is just a girl

she is just a little girl..

who dream of having a complete family..

which means sleep in between of her parents when she had a bad dream, 

or when the thunder scared her..

which mean playing with all her mom's make up and dresses to look like her, 

and end up wearing an oversized dress with clown face..

which means fight over a toy with her sister,

 or later talk about her dream guy at school..

which mean introduce her bestfriends at school to her father, 

and later have lunch together..

which mean having her parent at the side of the field during her school sports day, 

and later showing off her winning medal to her sister..

which mean fight over a silly thing every single hour with her sister, 

but end up cuddle with her under the same blanket gossiping about the hottest guy at school..

but it will never happen..

because it is just a dream..that never turn to reality..

the reality that she have to face is everytime she misses them, she will sleep..

and when she wake up, her pillow is wet with tears..

yes, she cry in her sleep..

again..

                                                       Rise and Shine

AMEERA ROSLAN

Meatball craving at ikea

Dia punya title meatball craving..tapi bila dah sampai ikea end up jd salmon craving, chicken wing craving, macam2 laa..and it is so spontaneous..just came across our mind and we end up having lunch there..(papa ambik makanan macam nak kenduri..)

ni punca utama..swedish meatball..

papa punya salmon..lupa apa nama dia..

dis one is my favourite..steam chicken with cream sauce..

jemput makan ye anak2..

its not the dishes that makes the day special..but the time we spend together..

                                                                                                          Rise and Shine

AMEERA ROSLAN